Still, I might be on a good way and hope I am, there is no darker place, that I have ever seen, than the inside of myself. I still hate myself not as much as I used to but still a lot and I think it is hard to explain to people. I often hear that people get themselves into depression because they just have negative thought but people don't know a thing. Honestly, depression is a serious illness. and if someone with depression has a better day it doesn't mean he's not depressed anymore, the day is still grey just without the rain. things will get better, eventually but you can't force it. Depression is one of the worst things this world has seen. Depression changes the character of a person, a lot of people can act around it so people around them don't realize it but that it is just so they won't throw a pity party or tell them that they should stop making everything negative. But telling someone with depression to just think positively is like telling someone with a broken leg to just run the marathon.