happiness

happiness, ..

what is happiness? it's this mysterious feeling which everyone wants and longs for. But do we actually know what it is?

I mean, isn't it funny how you feel really sad and depressed and then something happens and you are totally happy and feel awesome?!
this feeling you get when you could just do everything and you think there's nothing which could change that. It's funny, isn't it?

Maybe happiness is a mystery over all?! Can you measure it? No. Can you tell if someone's happy or not? Sometimes. Should you be happy with your life? Always!

 Everybody wants it but is afraid to have it.. People think if you are happy you will lose after a short amount of time, the feeling of just feeling good. I mean, being happy is amazing you will have this feeling of butterflies, fireworks and dancing on clouds in your head and stomach. Sometimes life turns out different than you thought it would be, planned it or expected it... but in the end that's great because life is like an arrow..

At some point, when you get happy out of a sudden, or for example because of something that happened, people will probably say it is because of a certain person or scenario. Maybe it is actually because of a certain person or of something which connects with that person, but that's great, eh? Like isn't it fantastic how somebody can just make you happy without really doing anything, with just being them. Sometimes it doesn't take more than that, just being yourself around people. People will appreciate you for being yourself instead of being somebody you pretend to be.

Actually, you are afraid of losing that feeling of happiness but why would you spend your day with being frightened of losing something you have? Just enjoy your life for that moment or live life like it is your last day! We need to stop worrying,.. even if we'll lose that happiness feeling, there is another something coming or not.. but remember everything happens for a reason

In the end of the day, you should be happy. It's true you can't be constantly happy with everything and everyone. There are times when people will try to tear you down but don't let them! Life is beautifully amazing!

So, just be like me happy, just happy like seriously.. I can't say why but it's amazing and days are always turning out awesome if you are just starting happy in the morning!
Life is beautiful!

October Photo Challenge Day 8

Today I had rehearsal and I am really tired after this day pretty much interesting how people turn out after just six weeks .. but that's another topic..

Day 8: Scarf

I will buy warmer scarfs for the winter probably on thursday in freaking TORONTO #loveloveloooove

October Photo Challenge Day 7

Day 7 : HAIR

i hadn't really time to do better pictures so it's this.. i will possibly have some kind of photoshoot soon (:

second guessing

we all do it more or less, it is human but it is not good for us, at least most of the time,..

why are we doing it in the first point?

I guess, we do it because we are always afraid in a certain way.. if we do something new especially, we are afraid to do it wrong instead of just doing it in our own way and maybe doing it differently than others. Also, we just don't know how to explain something new, because it is new and the we start it second guessing .. it's one of the worst things for me sometimes because you say something turn your back and just think 'wait what? i could've said it differently' but seriously there's no reason to we just have to jump sometimes and just do it! the person you talked probably didn't care if you say hey or hello or whatever, i am serious!
We should just stop to think about everything 500 hours and just go ahead and do it even if it feels weird or strange in the first moment it will be worth it in the end. I promise. But sometimes it's really weird, eh? I mean for me, I live in a different country and love it, i love my host family and most of the people are so friendly and awesome! I really love it, i mean! So so much! I can't believe it sometimes and it's just amazing, I don't have words for this!
But still, it's sometimes confusing that you don't talk with someone because you are afraid, which is seriously kind of dumb^^ i mean where's the problem,huh? and than you say yep do it and .. did it hurt? nope,!? :D
i mean this second guessing thing is not good for us but still we do it so often about such little things, like oh my god what if my hair is not the way it should be oh my god my bracelet does not fit my socks, you know what? nobody cares, i mean stop thinking and start doing, you probably hurt yourself more by always thinking about those silly things than instead of just doing it and maybe getting new chances or having an amazing life!

October Photo Challenge Day 6

So today is Sunday and I got an amazing purple winter jacket and boots since day 6 of the challenge is BOOTS I will show ya my new ones which I deeply love!

Day 6: BOOTS

They have some really great details, which kinda make them edgy and cute IDEK but I love them :D

October Photo Challenge Day 5

I am so sorry but I haven't had the time yesterday night to post the picture..

Day 5: FOOD

Storyline: I was, for the first time, at East Side Mario's with Nicole and Noemi (german gurls)! (we talk english, just BTW)
AnYWAYS, i had pasta and it was amazing really we had a great night!

I am sorry for the not HD quality but whatevs it was soooo delicious!

October Photochallenge Day 4 (belated)

I am so sorry for not uploading the photo yesterday night but I was at home pretty late..
 I was at some friends house with some awesome people and we had a karaoke and just dance4 evening/night, so I was pretty tired and just wanted to sleep afterwards :)

Day 4: cuddly buddy

I got this pillow from julia before I went to Canada and I love it. THANK YOU,sweety! xx

and here's a picture of me yesterday ^^

 Enjoy your life and have an amazing weekend! Life is awesome, reality starts to be a dream! (: xx

October Photo Challenge Day 3

So, here is day 3, and a happy german national day to those in my home country (:

This picture was actually taken last Saturday but it wasn't a really nice sky today so I thought that'll be okay!

 This was in the woods on Saturday! It was a beautiful and sunny day! (:





 And because this blog is cool ^^
Here's a no make up picture of me :D

Quote of the day: Autumn is a second spring when every leaf is a flower. ~ Albert Camus

October Photochallenge Day 2

Here's the second photo which is SMILE.

I was in the woods with bear which is our dog, the trail looks beautiful these days. We surely have a great Indian Summer, we ran around in dresses, skirts and shorts the last three days! In October! Say Whaaat?! :D 

A part from the trail, the leaves are mostly on the ground. If the sun shines on them everything looks really awesome in beautiful colors. I love the fall, I believe it is my favorite season of all time!

Thoughts

Thoughts..

we all have a lot of them, eh? But we refuse to talk about them, some are afraid to show their feelings and to get rejected and some are just not for everybody to hear, maybe there are some you don't know about,..

Isn't it weird how literally everybody has so many thoughts but they refuse to talk about them,.. they don't want to hurt people or they don't want to get hurt.. but some people have too many thoughts, they are afraid of their thoughts. Those people are afraid to wake up because of their mind, they are telling themselves that they will never be good enough or they feel ugly but the point is those people are the ones who are there for everybody and smile no matter what.
You see, I mean we all are some kind of self conscious but you can't know how other people feel, never. You won't know their story until they'll tell you but those people won't tell you their whole story from their past because they are afraid.. and this is unexplainable, you can't explain some things, thoughts or even peoples past's because they don't understand it themselves.

There are also those thoughts which will kind of destroy you and they will hold you back no matter what people tell you, if you don't love yourself or you don't have someone to show you love, you won't believe a thing. Do you know how it feels to be rejected and hurt by someone you really like or even love, huh? Yea, that's the point everybody does, but some are to afraid to move on and try again. It may sound weird or cheesy, whatever you want to call that but there are people who are so afraid that they will stop talking to that person even if they are longing for it. I mean, what could happen? The person doesn't like you but that's the worst case and we should rather ask ourselfes why they couldn't like us... We have to be self confident, we are all amazing! But even if you tell yourself that everyday, you won't feel like it always and surely not if the person's in front of you and you can't say anything.. Anyways, I wanted to say that there is actually no chance for the other person to not like you if you don't even really know each other.. so there is no point of being afraid even if you don't know what to say or how to act as long as you stay yourself there won't be anything wrong! You have nothing to lose and that is the truth!

Still, please don't search for someone because you want to hear how awesome you are or how lovely.. I mean you need to start love yourself first and the point is you don't need someone to be happy or to feel good with yourself, we just have to learn that.

Life is to create yourself!

Our society is a good example for making us feel uncomfortable in our bodies, ever thought about that?
I mean, we aren't models and there ain't muscular perfectly handsome guys out there, even if they want us to be like that. We will forever wish for a miracle, we want to be a disney princess and to get rescued by a knight on a horse to live happily ever after with, but let's be serious. THIS WON'T HAPPEN! We are human beings, we are here for a reason, we have this life for a reason.

I believe everything will make sense in the end and maybe we all will have our happily ever afters, who knows? Right, noone, so don't listen to the people who think they are better or those who can't stand something you do.

You are perfect in your own way! Imperfection is beautiful but we need to learn that because as older you get the more you feel self conscious..

October Photo Challenge

So, can you guys believe that it's October ?! It is unbelieveable how fast this year is going by, so I thought it would be fun if I will take a picture everyday. It is a photochallenge which I found on tumblr the other day. I will be posting all my pictures on Instagram aswell but I decided to also post them here, since this is my really personal blog.

So here is the challenge:

 I believe that this is going to be a lot of fun since there are also some fun pictures and halloween will be amazing, can't wait to show you the costume when it's done! EXCITED, anyways here you go it is the first picture!

October 1st 2013

 1.FOOD

but I didn't took a picture of my food so I changed the 1st with the 5th. which is SELFIE! 

1. October   Selfie

starting something new

So, this is where I talk, write, post and do what I want..

I will take you on a trip, my life, which is really adventerious and awesome at the moment, so stay tuned and watch me.

I will post about my life, my inspiration, my feelings, gossip and just me, myself and I.

Hopefully you will enjoy it. (:

Anna x