Thankful for you..

Sometimes I wish I could tell people how much they mean to me and how thankful I am to have them in my life, without sounding like a total idiot. I mean, most of the people know it, that's what I think, but I would want to know in the way of hearing it from people as well instead of just wondering if they are glad you are there for them or for just listening to them.  I am just too afraid to tell it because I don't want them to think I am a freak or just someone who needs attention or anything.

Especially, if you are on the other side of the world and some of your friends are just sending you message or stay up to talk to you. This is what friends are, right? I miss some of them for sure, but you will see over months who's still sticking around and even if you knew not everyone would be sticking around it hurt, at the start. In the end, I am happy to call those people friends who are still there for me no matter what.

I am just glad to have found those amazing people and getting them to know more every time we talk or by just enjoying each others company. I am thankful for those who stick around and even understand me in some ways. 

In the end of the day, you should be able to say it was a great day with people who make you happy and smile, people who make your life worth living. If they don't you should probably stop hanging around with them because they don't make your life better.

My goal is to tell people how thankful I am to be in my life and even if they don't expect it or think it's weird, I just want to let them know because you will never know if the person just needs you to say it because they might be feeling bad about themselves and their life. I also think it's better to make people happy with just a little gesture then never letting them know at all and regretting it in the end. 

Never forget, we only have this one life and you shouldn't regret not doing something which you could do by just calling, texting or telling somebody.

just another thursday..

ever had the feeling of just not wanting to wake up on a day or just wanting to stay in bed for a looong amount of time..??

Thursday, is it just me or is Thursday just the worst day of the week, i mean the day before Friday has to be bad, eh? because it would be so close to the weekend but yet so far. It happened so much but yet nothing, I mean people are talking about the point that Justin Bieber got arrested and they handle it like it's the most important thing, oh and The Wanted broke up and by the way there might be a civil war in the Ukraine..
Literally, that's how people handle news?! Can we stop for a second, please? I think it's more important to talk about the Ukraine and safety and therefore peace on this planet but sure discuss freaking Justin Bieber..

My day? Well, I woke up and I thought it might be another snowday but it wasn't but that's fine because I just want to get my exams done. Anyways, yes I didn't feel too well since I still have migraine but I didn't complain because we should be happy for the point that we live(!!!)  We take this ALL for granted and think we can just take and hate, bully and be ignorant but in the end of the day you can't say you're happy. Ever thought about someone being so upset about something you said that they wanted to commit suicide? Well some people are getting too affected from your perspective but please just stop this, and with this I mean stop hating, talking behind each others backs, giving each other dirty looks or bullying. People are just people some may say they don't care and some might go and hide to cry and then there are people who want to die because you make them feel like they are unwanted or misplaced.
On another note, I am not talking about myself. I just wanted to let you know that people have feelings and everyone is different and handles things differently! You wouldn't believe me if I said how soon a life could end just because you bullied them. Every time you bully someone they will get scars in their soul and you can't erase them ever again. Think before you talk.

Today, I had to say goodbye to my hostsister, she became a really good friend to me and she is like my own sister to me. She's going to be in France for three months and I know it will be an awesome experience for her. This is the best thing you can do, an exchange, it is amazing and I know she will meet amazing people. She will have a blast.  We miss her already but she is always a skype call away, eh?!

So, it was just another thursday ...

quote of the day: 'love is louder than the pressure to be perfect.'

Life living

Right now, I sit in class and think about the point what would be if I wasn't here..
Sometimes it seems to good to be true and then it's like I've never been somewhere else..

I am the way I am and I wouldn't want to change that anymore, even if I wanted to at some point, that's over.. I mean, we somehow are never completely happy with ourselves but we can work on that since we can choose how to live our own life. Choose the life you want and not other people want you to..

'Even if you're the ripest, most beautiful peach in the world, there will still be a person who hates peaches.'

update

so i know i actually didn't post a lot on here yet and lately..
that's going to change since I will at least post three times a week, just about my life, how I feel and things that are going on..

stay tuned

Anna-Lena