who are you now?
what do you want to be?
where do you want to be in a few years?
are you happy?
well obviously most of us don't have answers to those questions but we get them asked a lot. If people asked me two years ago I exactly knew the answers and I still do but they changed in one way and one slightly bit. I mean, if someone asks me now I still answer truthfully but I don't tell people about my dreams anymore because a lot of them are afraid to believe that there is something bigger and better for me to come and some are just jealous of what I have achieved with only eighteen years. I know what's to come for me in just the next few months and I am happy for those who were in my life for seventeen, eight or even just the last year.
I mean what is time?
As cliché as it sounds, it doesn't matter for how long you know someone because the ones who 'knew' me never did and I lost so many people I used to call best and great friends in the just last few months and even got some old friends back who were happier than ever. I know some things won't change no matter how old I get, especially when it comes to some people.
I like the way I changed in just these couple of months and yes it is really hard to be apart but it's also great to see who actually cares and who wants me to find me again. I am stronger than before but still the same and my friends know that. And I would lie if I'd say I don't like the attention I am getting but again I am really self-conscious.
I am going my way now, and I won't care about their opinions anymore, at least I have to try and be there at some point eventually.
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